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Umbrella Afternoon
05:16
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Chilling breaths of air blow by
I retreat into my mind
Ringing noises stuck inside
Another life on the other side
Daydream fantasies inbound
My refuge when no one's around
The city hums its busy sound
Thunder and lights resound
On umbrella afternoon
Subdued beneath my lonesome roof
Just how I always do
On umbrella afternoon
Adam's ale pours out these eyes
There's no use waiting for them to dry
I wonder what this day might be
If these raindrops drained life out of me
A silent end drowned out by storm
Maybe I wouldn't feel this anymore
The city hums its busy sound
Thunder and lights resound
On umbrella afternoon
Subdued beneath my lonesome roof
Just how I always do
On umbrella afternoon
A lonesome soul trapped in this world
Feels like I go unheard
On umbrella afternoons
Submerged into a hurt so deep
I'm in up to my knees
On umbrella afternoon
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2. |
If I Could Go Back
03:51
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For every time that I broke down
There was a fake smile to cover the frown
I hid behind lies when things got tough
Forced myself to think it was enough
My tears were masked by the rain
Unseen by all, alone with my pain
Each night was a cover to hide my cries
To keep from showing all these lies
If I could go back, I'd change it all
Stop myself from starting to fall
Consumed by hatred, I lost all sight
I knew what was wrong but it felt so right
I couldn't live without the pain
Or the anger pulsing through my vein
Each truth a lie I learned to hold
While watching each one start to unfold
If I could go back, all that would change
These diamond lies wouldn't seem so strange
I'd undo my lies and make them true
Hold on tightly to all that I do
Forget the bad, and think of only each day
And what's to come, without dismay
I'd forget that I cried those tears
Remember only every one of my fears
I'd try to be everything that I lost
Before I fell, remember the cost
Hope for the best, and try to be
All that died when I lost me
I'd turn back time to redo all this
And relive the life I almost missed
Only if I could turn it back
I'd find everything that I started to lack
No longer would fake smiles appear
They'd be true with nothing to fear
It'd be as though it was a dream
That came one night to make it seem
As though this was really true
But now there's only one thing I must do
Go back in time and erase this pain
Wash it away on rivers of rain
All this could happen if I went back
And once again in my life, I'd be on the right track
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3. |
Something I'm Missing
04:52
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Was just you and me
Was so easy
We were dumb but we were happy
Why did that moment have to be?
As we lost the time
Shifting the lines
Looking for a "more-than-a-friend"
But I'm not sure I'm on your mind
You're the one I need when I'm lonely
And I've been getting over you over and over, Baby
I can't help but feel like there's something I'm missing
Can't put my finger on it just yet
You're the one I know I can lean on
You pick me up when I'm falling, again and again
And you got me thinking maybe there's something I'm missing
And you're the one I've been looking for
Something I'm missing
You are the something I'm missing
Something I'm missing
You are the something I'm missing
You're smiling with her
Tears and laughter
Didn't think it'd cause this much hurt?
Did you forget how close we were?
As I start to fade
Into the gray
Running out of things I can say
When none of it can make you stay
You're the one I need when I'm lonely
And I've been getting over you over and over, Baby
I can't help but feel like there's something I'm missing
Can't put my finger on it just yet
You're the one I know I can lean on
You pick me up when I'm falling, again and again
And you got me thinking maybe there's something I'm missing
And you're the one I've been looking for
Don't you dare think of someone new
I'll spend a lifetime chasing after you
The truth is that you are
The something that I live for
You've been searching for somebody, somewhere
Just call my name and
I'll be there for you
Can't deny that I am
The something that you're missing
Something I'm missing
You are the something I'm missing
Something I'm missing
You are the something I'm missing
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4. |
Never Hated Anyone
04:15
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How did this happen to me?
When did it get so hard to breathe?
These hazy, dizzy thoughts keep me confined
I dreamt that you were there
Carnation petals in my hair
’Til then I’m left alone,
dreaming up your hand
And now, sinking in heartache
Lugging the weight of my mistakes
They left me cut and bruised
And I’m left to heal the wounds
Until I see the final spill,
bending me into my wasted will
I have never hated anyone
as much as I hate me
Middle of the day I’m filled with pain,
Middle of the night I’m wide awake
Rip this heart out of my chest,
Float me away
Wanna share the world inside my head,
Wanna know somebody understands,
Instead I’m met with so many regrets
And now, sinking in heartache
Lugging the weight of my mistakes
They left me cut and bruised
And I’m left to heal the wounds
Until I see the final spill,
bending me into my wasted will
I have never hated anyone
as much as I hate me
And now, sinking in heartache
Lugging the weight of my mistakes
They left me cut and bruised
And I’m left to heal the wounds
Until I see the final spill,
bending me into my wasted will
I have never hated anyone
as much as I hate me
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5. |
Easy to Ignore
03:54
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You were never single, were ya?
You must think I’m really stupid, baby
Though I thought I knew your reasons, ooh
You were never truly honest, mmm
You were always running, running from something
From what, I’m not too sure
Maybe we got too serious
And maybe that scared ya
But you don’t gotta be afraid anymore
Cuz it’s easy to ignore
Ignore the warning signs
Cuz the red flags don’t mean nothing, can’t stop this,
The sun’s coming down
And it’s much too late now to give the fight
It’s too easy to ignore
Ignore the warning signs, the crimson light, the white lies,
Baby
(Ooh, ooh)
And you never got over him, did ya?
And you thought you could mess around with me, Honey
And though I thought you knew me better, oh
You were always keeping secrets, sneaking about
You were always hiding, hiding something
Something inside your head
Maybe you knew I loved ya
And maybe that scared ya
But you don’t gotta play pretend anymore
Cuz it’s easy to ignore
Ignore the warning signs
Cuz the red flags don’t mean nothing, can’t stop this,
The sun’s coming down
And it’s much too late now to give the fight
It’s too easy to ignore
Ignore the warning signs, the crimson light, the white lies,
(Baby, ooh ooh)
(Ahhh yeah, I'm not afraid)
(Prove it to me, let's start somethin')
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6. |
Nightlights
03:27
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Always darkest before dawn
No need to leave the nightlight on
Always rainbows after rain
We’ll surely see the sun again
Like a lightning bolt
you struck my eye
Just like a miracle
Brought me to life
Even on my darkest of nights
Knowing your love keeps me alive
The simple comfort of
your hand in mine
So damn wonderful,
angel in disguise
I’ll be your shoulder
when you need to cry
Don’t worry,
It will be alright
Always darkest before dawn
No need to leave the nightlight on
Always rainbows after rain
We’ll surely see the sun again
Like a butterfly, you gave me wings
You gave me music for my heart to sing
Your lips are magic, like a movie scene
The light fades out, it’s only you and me, like
How long are we allowed to wish on stars?
Blow on the dandelions, cross our hearts?
If there’s an age limit on all our dreams
You’ll have to come and arrest me
Always darkest before dawn
No need to leave the nightlight on
Always rainbows after rain
We’ll surely see the sun again
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7. |
Moving Forwards
03:46
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From this day on,
I am gonna keep a wall around my heart
From this day on,
I am gonna keep an eye out from the start
From this day on,
I’ll smile to hide the pain
From this day on,
I’ll be moving forwards
but in reverse (Oh)
I’ll keep the memories of us,
I’ll find a way to wipe the dust
And go back to when it was just us
I hope that it’s out there
I hope, I wish, I pray to find a better day
From this day on,
I am gonna pull myself up by the straps
From this day on,
I am gonna fashion bandages from the straps
From this day on,
The wounds will start to heal
From this day on,
I’ll be moving forwards
but in reverse (Oh)
I’ll keep the memories of us,
I’ll find a way to wipe the dust
And go back to when it was just us
I hope that it’s out there
I hope, I wish, I pray to find a better day
I’ll burn the memories of us,
I’ll find a way to regain trust
And go back before it was just us
I know that it’s somewhere
I hope, I wish, I pray to find a better
I want, I need, I wait to find a better day
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8. |
Noise
03:29
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Lost at sea
Sinking in my mind
As blank as a sheet
On my own isle,
My own personal hell
Broken and hurt so deep
On my own
A fish freed from the bowl
The air is thin
And i'm drowning in
Lack of oxygen
Toss me back into
the ocean
The nightmares won't stop flooding in
sometimes when I'm drowsy
I fall down
Mumbling in my sleep again
Wait for the lights to come back on...
Free me from love that I had
There's probably someone else
Who deserves it
Silence this noise in my head
There must be somebody
Who's longing for it
Leadning back
Heavy in my chest
I'm gasping for air
I guess I thought
When all was said and done
You'd come and meet me there
Now it's gone
The milk's already spilt
It's way too late
Every tear is shed
Pressure in my head
And my Sanity
Is wasted
The memories won't stop flooding in
sometimes when I'm lonely
I break down
Wallowing in my pain again
Wait for the lights to come back on...
Free me from love that I had
There's probably someone else
Who deserves it
Silence this noise in my head
There must be somebody
Who's longing for it
I know
I am not the best at letting go, so
I'll go
I was meant to be alone
Free me from love that I had
There's probably someone else
Who deserves it
Silence this noise in my head
There must be somebody
Who's longing for it
Free me from love that I had
There's probably someone else
Who deserves it
Silence this noise in my head
There must be somebody
Who's longing for it
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9. |
Give Up Dreamin', Kid
03:12
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Every click within the pocket watch
I’ve been trying to dodge
but I fall short between the moments
when I thought I had charge
Dozing off all day,
‘cuz when I wake,
It’s much to my dismay
Reality stay far away (x2)
Falling fast within the hourglass
When I can’t find myself
I see the grains rapidly draining
Is there anything left?
Heart’s got a rift
I’m nearing the cliff
Cradling the rest,
I’m clinging to this
Can somebody please teach me
how to give up dreaming?
Dozing off all day,
‘cuz when I wake,
It’s much to my dismay
Reality stay far away (x2)
Over the edge,
I’ve run out of breath
Got nothing left
I’m clinging to this
‘cuz I don’t think I’m ready
to give up dreaming
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10. |
When
02:59
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I should’ve kept my mouth shut
I should’ve held my breath
I should’e learned to hold onto the strength that I've got left
I should’ve kept our photos
I should’ve kept your notes
Seen our smiles or read your words
Something to keep you close
I should've kept your t-shirt
I should've kept your gifts
I should've kept some piece of you for when I need a lift
I should’ve been by your side
I should’ve been more kind
I've cleared out every of these things
Trying to get you out my mind
When, oh,
When did our love fade?
When, oh,
When did our hearts start to change?
We used to believe in fairytales and dreams
Now they’re both foreign things
So when, oh, when, oh, when…
We should’ve held on tighter
We should’ve kept our trust
We might've seen what the days ahead had in store for us
We might’ve gotten older
We might’ve gotten wise
We might have had everything,
In love for all our lives
We could’ve been together
I could’ve been your wife
I could’ve been the girl to spend forever by your side
I should’ve told you sooner
What you meant to me
I wonder after all these years,
Do you ever think of me?
When, oh,
When did our love fade?
When, oh,
When did our hearts start to change?
I used to believe in fairytales and dreams
Now they’re both foreign things
So when, oh, when, oh, when?
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11. |
Desktop Dreamer
03:27
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Oh, I know somedays I whine
over and over
because I've never been a four leafed clover
Maybe I'm like that blue balloon
I wanna take off too
Although
I'd never leave the ground without you
I'm lonelier by my friends,
too far gone to pretend
I'm happier when I sleep
'cuz dreams have been kinder to me
I'm friendlier on my own,
too used to being alone
So over this ordinary
I gotta get away from here
Desktop Dreamer, are you awake?
Desktop Dreamer, have you a story for us today?
Desktop Dreamer, don't drift away
before the drowsy daydreams have had their stay
Oh, I know somedays I'm like
a sour lemon
because I've never lived a day so pleasant
So take me to the sweet with you
I wanna taste it too
because it'd never be the same without you
I'm lonelier by my friends,
too far gone to pretend
I'm happier when I sleep
'cuz dreams have been kinder to me
I'm friendlier on my own,
too used to being alone
So over this ordinary
I gotta get away from here
Desktop Dreamer, are you awake?
Desktop Dreamer, have you a story for us today?
Desktop Dreamer, don't drift away
before the drowsy daydreams have had their stay
I'm cozier in the crowd
though I'd never say it out loud
I'm terrified of myself
I wanna see somebody else
I want to escape this cold
At last, find somewhere warm
So over this melancholy
Hey there, won't you come rescue me?
Desktop Dreamer, are you around?
Desktop Dreamer, have you a song to share the sound?
Desktop Dreamer, don't drift away
before the drowsy daydreams have had their stay...
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Party-P Detroit, Michigan
Artist & Musician from the Midwest. Loves experimenting with new technology and new styles of music.
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